Lost

The old me wants to go back to the young me
To seek out comfort at a bewildering time
I could not understand your pain, yet I
Tried to reach out to you and you refused
My hand, every time someone takes their
Life I deal with the pain of past guilt
And shame, I was so young and you were
Younger still, I expected too much of
Myself, yet sometimes the confusion still
Remains, are you in heaven? Was there
Anything I could have done or said? Why did
You shut me out? I loved my cousin, who was
Not old, not aged, forever young now because
You ended everything so soon. Today we
Remember those who have taken their lives
Away from us and left us with all the questions.
We love you all, remember you dearly, and
Pray you have found eternal rest and joy.